恋仙笑-第57部分
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月底这天，是小雪的生日，他们就在那天结婚了。那晚，月亮很亮，很圆，整个房间的气氛很迷人。一阵热吻之后，他们上了她的床，肉体的相碰，她露出了甜蜜的笑容。
这个蜜月，白天他们就在壁谷内闲荡，这是一段快乐的时光，哥哥真希望永远都停留在这段时光中。小雪说被卖到这里来，是她一生的快乐，因为她外面已经没有亲人了，到这里她找到了她唯一的亲人。
就在蜜月的最后一天，主人们也和他们一同去游玩，但是这天，不幸的事情发生了。女主人被毒蛇咬伤，男主人用嘴去吸进入女主人体内的毒液，两人十几分钟就中毒而死了。男主人用最后一点力气掏出了地洞的钥匙，说：“快……走吧，遗产……在……在床下。”
哥哥和小雪地方都掉下了眼泪，虽然是被他们收买过事的，但不是他们的错，而是一种社会风气的错。他们对哥哥和小雪都不是很差，他们很可怜。哥哥把他们埋在一起，回到了小屋，拿到了遗产，打开了地洞的门，他们离开了这鬼地方。
虽然哥哥从龙宫出来只比我早一天，但是出来的地方和时辰不同，来到人间的时间差是挺大的。他来到人间快两个月了，两个月的不幸，他又回到了两个月前流浪的城市。这两个月的时光，充满了酸甜苦辣。
他们上了一辆出租车，准备回家，意外的是，司机正是当年卖他们的人。他们骗出租司机去警察局，司机当然想不到这两个人就是当年的人了。到了警察局，哥哥他们立即报警，出租司机很快被抓捕了。
他们回到了镇上，进了家门，但出来的是一个陌生人，后来才知道，哥哥的父母为了找他，把房子卖了，作为路费。满怀高兴的心情一下子冷清了，他们只有回到故乡去。
他从夏天流浪到了秋天，下午的太阳倦了，躲进了云里；山倦了，路也倦了，倦了的山覆盖了倦了的路。山路中哥哥和小雪支撑着这片疲倦的天空。
晚上，他们走进了家门，哥哥把身上的一毛钱，刚流浪时得到的那一毛钱交给了父亲。 在微弱的灯光下，哥哥看见父母老了，深邃的眼睛流出了泪珠，哥哥哭了……他扑到了父母的怀中像一个小孩子似的，对父母讲述着酸甜苦辣。
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59、第五十八章 寻找出道 。。。
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60、第五十九章 超越自己 。。。
路，世界上本来就有，只是走的人多了，以便无了路。
哥哥回到家里的那晚，他做了一个长长的梦，就如到了异界：
这是一个多雨的夏天，这是他高中毕业后的第一个无聊的署假。天气自然很热，他每天就在家里呆着。他总把窗帘拉得紧紧的，他不想看到太阳，也不需要太阳给他一丝阳光。但他也总是拦不住外面噪杂的世音，偶尔几声鸟鸣，也是给他一种恐惧的失落感。
他的生活已经变得很黑暗，过去的日子已经变得发霉了，他的信念，已经被时代的步伐所分解。他的过去有过辉煌的时刻，但他不想呼唤它们，他说过，它们已经发霉了。他也呼唤不到，因为那辉煌是他转世附身那个人的，只不过现在变成了他的记忆罢了。
他只想得到新的人生，但他恐惧改变。他对一条新道路，总是恐惧前进，因为，前面或许是悬崖，或许是荆棘小道，或许……
他的顾虑太多，他还在原地徘徊。至此，他深深地体会到了一位画家说过的话：“我不是不想改变我的作画风格，而是不敢，我怕改变了以后，再也没有人析赏我的画。”哥哥相信，在世上的每一个角落，都能找到这样的心理矛盾，改变对于多数人来说，是有魔鬼般的可怕。
每次说到变，哥哥的全身就会感到颤抖，就若是轻微的电击。他不敢改变前面的道路，但他也不想回望身后的阳光大道，因为身后的大道虽有阳光，但已被他长长的身影覆盖得发霉了。可是，现在他面前已经凝聚成了一座迷宫了，只因为，他在原地的脚印在变深，前路迷迷。他闻了一下原地的气味，它开始变质了，再不离开这鬼地方，他将会被它腐蚀于此。他必须超越自己的恐惧，走进前方的迷宫。
迷宫的路太多，每条都阴暗、狭长。但是，为了寻找他的新人生，他必须走进去。至于路的好坏，也没什么去考虑的了，因为他根本就无法知道。他只是选择了北方的一条小道，他向往北方，那里有北大、清华，他相信那里一定是积蓄文化的地方。
在这条阴暗的小道上，他时而碰壁，时而跌倒，但他不在乎。现在他很年轻，前方的方向很迷茫，他只想以多次的碰壁，来改变他未来的方向，然后再作新的奋斗。跌倒使他的心变得更成熟，如果没有跌倒过，他哪知立世之艰难？
在世间很多人，是没有跌倒过的，就如历代君王的亡国之君，他们的路是先帝给他们走出来的，他们哪里知道世道不平，难以处世立足。最终世间没有他们的立足之地，世间还有一种人，把直线当成最完美的东西。两点之间，线段最短，他们怕曲折，就是碰壁，也不想绕道而行。然后，碰破了额头，埋葬于壁前。
尽管多次地碰壁、跌倒，飘来的嘲笑声在噪杂，他是没有想过要返回去的。他不想退缩，他不想回到宫外那变质的地方，或许那地下现在已经腐烂。他一直以为，现在的碰壁跌、倒就是未来成功的基石。耳际的嘲笑禁不起时间的分解，也许很快就会变为歌颂、崇拜。
一年的时间过去了，他一直在这阴暗的小道上拖着疲惫的步伐，寒冷与饥饿冲击着他年少的心。他是要进还是要退？退？……噢不，他不想退，回去没有什么，那路是他走过的，退回去将得不到什么，那就一定失败。他要进，或许不一定失败。
但进……哎！又碰壁了。这次，是碰了一道门，门开了，射进一束阳光。他是否……他走过迷宫了？他跑过门去，
